Shower thoughts continued

I have 7 days left, a full week, to make the life-altering decision of whether I make my way back to California or stay here. I'm faced with this dilemma more than I'd like at this point in my life, but I also can’t see myself living without this dilemma. Certain days, I wish I could shut it all off, to think without thinking. I've met people like that, and I envy them. It really comes on and off. I'd like myself to think about the nuances of life and not think when the big important decisions come. It seems simple that way, like a breeze, as the saying goes.

I love to go around believing life has a way of working itself out, whether it’s working out for the 20 bucks you've lost or the dire need of a brake change. It finds a way. And it really has, at least for myself, in most situations. I'm grateful I've never had real detrimental issues, such as a life-debilitating disease or having to care for a senile loved one (just 2 examples out of the hundreds you can think of). My issues, my problems, are merely specs, tiny inconveniences in a life that, well, honestly, is quite easy