Nevada 213

Living with someone is hard but what is even harder is living with someone out of your car. Madeline may eventually read this and if that’s the case so be it. I wish to write nothing but the truth and the truth is I am ready to be alone again. It’s been delightful having company and sharing 15 square feet it’s an intimacy that can’t be replicated. I miss doing things on my own accord. I am clearly not ready to give that up. I mean none of this in any disrespect or negativity towards Madeline who has been staying with me in my car since the beginning of this year. I was slightly disappointed to not kick off the start of this year on my own terms and create my own year-long traditions. Though it was sincere and a great chance to start it off with her. She’s one of the sweetest and kindest people I’ve had the pleasure of being around. She has a calm soothing presence that balances out my hyper-chaotic brain. I couldn’t ask for a better person to be around during this time of my life. I believe that we as people want to be understood more than anything it’s a desire that goes above all. She tries so hard to understand me when she doesn’t have to and I’ve tried to do the same though she strives at it in a way I’m unable to. I am so grateful to have a person like her and I can only wish to be the person for her that she is for me. xoxo