San Diego 276
It's the first real rainy day here in San Diego. Folks are out and about dressed in raincoats. Down jackets and beanies. It’s about when they can rummage through their closets and dig deep beneath the tank tops and short shorts. I woke up a bit later than usual and my excuse is the rain. It's the best and realistically only valid reason to stay in bed all day and eat whatever you want. I want to be honest with everyone reading this and at first; I was reluctant to share this, but it feels right to do so. I'm noticing myself lose motivation for a lot of the aspects of my life I am proud to be motivated for. I riddled my body with injuries from past years that have honestly crushed my spirits. Staying healthy and fit was the catalyst to live an exciting and adventurous life and I don’t want to say I feel it slipping away, but it sure feels that way. It'll take a lot for me to fall into a hole so deep I won’t be able to recognize myself. I believe that what happens when individuals completely lose motivation or hope for a better tomorrow is they lose the eagerness to be better people, learn new things, and explore new places. Something that I constantly think of when I feel low on myself and I can’t seem to dig deep is that there are folks who have things much worse, real people who are down on their luck, people that no matter what I wouldn’t trade what I have for what they have. It’s a good reminder to myself that things can always be worse, and that the way life is currently, well, it won’t always be like this. I get to choose how I feel about my situation. My perspective of the things around me and the current state of my life is up to me. I can give myself only so much time to feel sorry and tell myself this sucks, life sucks. Eventually, I have to get back on the horse, as they say, and keep pushing. What good am I to myself if I can't get myself out of these mental ruts? What good will I be to a future wife or kids if I can't dig my way out of this hole? I always try to remember when I'm down or feeling unmotivated to even get out of bed that one day hopefully I won't always have to search within me to get motivated again it'll be on the other side of the bed or across the room on a children's bed.
I'm not hoping for something grandiose to happen this year or anytime soon. In striving to be a better person for whoever comes into my life, however, that happens. Writing this was proof that motivation can be found in almost anything, even in something as simple as writing a blog post.