Wyoming 155

I haven’t written in awhile.

Past few days have been rough mentally and especially emotionally. I dragged my relationship 20 steps backwards but worst of all i caused a lot of hurt to someone I made an oath and promise to. I never was fixated on emotional relationships and dating serious I wouldn’t do it.. it was something that never interested me because I felt it was riddled with dramatic conversations and energy that could be placed elsewhere. I met emma and my idea of that quickly went away but unfortunately my mentality was still not in its best place. I say to hit rock bottom in any aspect of life and to make that the time you want change to happen is pathetic it’s insulting to yourself and anyone who happen to come across you in that time. The rest is up to you to create that change to create a better version of yourself and if you see yourself unable to I hope you come across something or someone who triggers that. The terrible misfortune to be the person to trigger change is not only unlucky but really a tragedy you not only become scarred or hurt in the process most likely but will end up with the difficult choice to make which whether you want to stay for the change or leave and allow growth to take its course. Dont let people down it’s bad enough once but twice is a symbol of your character and who you are and this is not me saying you let someone down the first time it should be forgotten or overlooked it shouldn’t if we don’t take our mistakes and our failures and learn from then we lose what it means to be human. If we cannot fall and stand up stronger more confident then we will stay down and watch as those who do stand from failures and mistakes grow in ways we were supposed to.