CalifOrnia 145

I had a nightmare last night… so about a little over a year ago I was involved with a girl for privacy sake let’s call her “K”. I wasn’t her biggest fan after some time I’m pretty sure she foreignicated with some buster while we were in business. Anyways… I’m not sure why she popped up in this nightmare other than the fact she was a nightmare in itself. Long story short my nightmare involved me waking up every hour in a panic thinking she shaved my eyebrows and left my hair with bald patches all over. I woke up this morning 4:41 marched straight into my bathroom and did a double triple check on my condition. Let’s just say eyebrows are still in tact and still a full head of hair (for now). I’m pretty sure if a girl shaved my eyebrows I might have to hunt them down and do the same (don’t get any funny ideas Emma). I probably shouldn’t say “hunt them down” being the current state and reputation that outdoor people specifically men have currently with that piece of garbage Brian laundrie.

I believe when we make decisions based off of fear or the avoidance of something that is inevitable in this life they aren’t good or sound decisions. I’ve spent the majority of my “adult” life avoiding or how I like to say preventing a certain downfall. Trust is a precious value we hold and especially in today’s world it’s more rare than ever. I haven’t given myself the chance to be trusted nor have I given anyone the chance to be trusted. Something I’d say is pretty normal today we seem to be more closed off and willing to sacrifice a whole aspect of life which is love and relationships all because FEAR. This is all my irrelevant opinion. I also think it’s hilarious I’m willing to climb mountains and climb rock faces knowing the risks but seem to be afraid of something that should be so easy.

6am thoughts.

San Diego is beautiful early in the morning.