Sauna thoughts.

The most important thing I do is while I'm sitting in this scorching sauna surrounded by half-naked men in their 50s. I can't tell you why I just do. I can't write this and pretend im content or happy with my overall “life”. I think it's important to be aware of when you are happy and when you're not, masquerading these feelings in any way is a form of an unhealthy coping mechanism for dealing with emotions. I’m not saying that I’m walking around a depressed mopey guy I’m just not satisfied with the current conditions of how things are going. I have a torn ligament in my knee, and a torn shoulder and I work a job that if not for the people I work with would be extremely unpleasant. It’s interesting, though when I have to deal with rude or ill-mannered people who have no mindfulness for their surroundings I use it as very valuable lessons for my future and the kind of person I want to be in my 30s, 40s, or whenever. I also use it as a tool to see how I’m gonna treat my children, and how I want my children to treat other people. When working, you can’t be disappointed or look at a child and think concerning thoughts, they’re only a product of their surroundings and who is raising them. They might live in Encinitas and probably have wealthy parents they also most likely get fed every single night and have a bed to sleep on. I think at the end of the day that's what we all want it’s the standard of when you’re being raised by parents. It’s also hard to blame the adults so much to teach their children mindfulness and how to think when they can’t even do that themselves.