Investing in yourself

The anxiety of moving to the next step is overwhelming. I’m trying hard not to listen to the negative voices inside my head, telling me not to move forward and to hesitate on the investments I want to make in this website and in my future overall. There are so many things to consider, but what am I really considering? The small decisions that might either fail or succeed. And if they fail, then so what? Move on to the next; it’s part of life. That’s how we should all view it. If we did, then everyone would be pursuing their dreams instead of settling for what they’re doing, trying to achieve what they’re capable of. But the reality is, as humans, we’re protective. Our instinctual being is meant for survival, and making risky choices, financially or time-wise, impinges on that survivability, and we notice that very quickly.

There was a point in my life where I would make decisions instantly, with almost no thought behind them. I’m sure a great deal of it had to do with my age and that fact I had nothing to lose. Those are the most dangerous type of people the ones with nothing to lose. The ones that are willing to put all their chips on the table and not look back.

This approach got me into some extremely sticky situations throughout my life but also rewarded me greatly. It has brought me amazing people, experiences, and lessons that I would never trade for the world. But with all that came some unnecessary hardship, difficulties that only I could have felt , and overall, a different life than most.

What I’m trying to say is that, at the moment, I’m contemplating a lot of ideas. I’ve been pondering how to go about them financially and how to utilize my time properly. I know there is never going to be a “perfect” time, and that I need to just dive in because if I don’t, no one else will. I always want to embrace the curiosity of what the future holds, without looking back in regret over missed opportunities.