California 172

It's been almost two years since I have visited Los Angeles.  I used to live there and at that time in my life things were a lot different,  I was a different person mentally, physically, and spiritually even emotionally I would say.  I had heavy drug usage, heavy drinking, and overall I wasn't taking care of myself, I believed that the only thing that mattered was how much money I was making or what people thought of me.  To a certain extent I think we all do all throughout our lives, maybe not about how much money we're making but about what other people think of us, I think we all grow up striving to be the individual that doesn't care about judgment doesn't care about the opinions of the outside world.  That's simply not the case, though.  I'm not saying that it's the most important thing to us, but I think when it comes down to it, we do value the opinions of others, especially  the people that we hold close to us such as our friends and family.  I think what's more essential though is that you must value your own opinion of yourself more, you should care more about what you think of yourself then your friends or your family.  At the end of the day, the individual knows what's best for the individual.  I think the people close to us can give us advice, give us tips and other things to make life better easier healthier and overall better.  And I think the advice  or tips that people close to us give us I think we should value that, and I think we should look at it and see if it's something that's important to us  and if we feel that it could directly have a positive impact on our well-being or any aspect of our life we put the ego aside, and we take it.  Putting the ego and pride aside, I think is one of the hardest things that us humans have to do, swapping it for something else for someone else's beliefs for someone else's opinions.  Then again that is when true change happens is when you allow someone to influence you, allowing them to mold the ideas that you have had, when you allow someone to inspire you to become better healthier stronger smarter that is when real change happens. 

Anyway I went to Los Angeles and I went to a grocery store called Erewhon it was outrageous and was kind of silly, definitely marketed to the ultrarich and famous.  There was a box of strawberries just like the ones that you would find at your local Vons or grocery store  that's usually go for round 3.99, but in this case it was 20.99.  There were pastries for over $15 it was pretty outrageous and don't get me wrong if I was shitting money I’d probably only shop there too.  Emma discovered a drink that was selling at the grocery store, it was called a blue smoothie supposedly something along those lines, I just know I had Blue Sea algae in it… I think. She wanted to try it, so she bought, I believe it cost around $17.  I wouldn't say it was bad, but I wouldn't say it was the best smoothie I've ever had in my life. I've certainly had better for a better price.  But then again, my better price is probably different from the other guys.  Afterwards she went to go get a tattoo, something that she’s been wanting for a few years now it was kind of nerve-wracking for her, I can tell she was nervous. I don't blame her, when you're putting something on your body that's going to be there permanently you should be nervous and if you're not nervous I don't think you've thought it through.  She ended up getting the tattoo and came out pretty cool, I won't say what it was out of respect for her privacy.  The rest of the day consisted of going to Santa Monica getting a pedicure that was pretty cool I don't really do that much often then we went to Newport Beach and ate some excellent Italian food.  We then decided to sit in the parking lot of a grocery store because we were filled with pasta and carbs, and I felt so bad because all I was doing was just farting in her car.  To be honest it was a well-needed day trip I desperately needed to get the f*** out of San Diego even if it was 2 hours away I love where I grew up, and I wouldn't want to have it any other way  but at this point of my life I think I've become a kind of roamer.  It's difficult for me to sit still in one place.  I want to move around I want to see things I want to smell new things I want to try new things, and unfortunately I think I become a very unpleasant person to be around if I'm stuck in one place for too long.