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Happy Thanksgiving to anyone reading this. LOVE YOU ALL.

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Should be heading back to Utah this weekend, it was nice spending some time with my family and just relaxing with them. Unfortunately I didnt get to do so much with them just cause of the circumstances at the moment. I did some climbing here in San Diego and it was super enjoyable. I have a few gear items I need to cross off my list before January. Im not one to worry about money because ive always been pretty comfortable but at all costs avoid running through your savings its foolish. Im trying hard to avoid that at the moment.

Grateful to have met the people I have met in Utah because they have been fucking amazing and dope cant attract weenies.

Coming back for a little bit and speaking with family on my goals and plans it makes me sound fucking crazy. You will always have “haters” or “doubters” I am not saying my family is. Its just thats the case especially when the path you take in life from an early age is super unconventional and non traditional, understand you will get looks you will get judgement from anyone… and honestly especially family its usually the ones who love you or care for you the most they feel comfortable enough to tell you shit that probably your yes man friends wont.

Loved ones:

No matter how much we argue with loved ones about their criticisms and put-downs, we are likely to believe them, at least unconsciously. We might not agree with the particular flaw pointed out, but on some deep level, we'll perceive a defect that must be defended. Some part of us buys into the "blemishes" reflected in the mirror of love, even when we know intellectually that our loved one is distorting who we are. Just as important, when you feel sad or disappointed, you will know that you can do something to improve your emotional state, if not your situation. Your sadness will be short-lived—you may feel bad for a while, but then regroup and do something that will make you feel valuable once again.

When we unconditionally love someone we become so vulnerable. We will do anything for them. They hold the key of our happiness and they are the only people who hold the ultimate power to hurt you the most. We often end up trusting them so much that we end up sharing every secret of us to them. One important factor in this is the expectations that we have about them.

I want to quote one of the famous Game of Thrones quotes - "People work together when it suits them. They’re loyal when it suits them. They love each other when it suits them, and they kill each other when it suits them". You don't know whether they see the way you see them or trust them. People need someone who would always be there to help with their work, someone who would always give a listening ear, and lastly someone who Always kept the secrets. Once they feel that you are not of any use to them anymore they will just hurt you in the most cruel way ever(which they sometimes don't do intentionally). The more often we see the things around us - even the beautiful and wonderful things - the more they become invisible to us. Sometimes without their knowledge people tend to take others for granted.

Memories don't hurt. Love doesn't hurt. It is the attachment that hurts. It is the expectation that hurts. It is the imagined future that is now broken that hurts.

Huge rant kind of everywhere but enjoy. Love is always going to be a fascinating topic to me especially because I have never been in love or have loved another person unconditionally but I am looking forward to the day I do.

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San Diego, California

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