UTah 51

Short blog tonight.

First day on the job my hands were pretty much frozen 70% of the time. Overall though the job is relatively very relaxed and enjoyable. I don’t think you work at ski resort for the money I mean obviously you do but seriously that can’t be the main reason. I’m looking forward to the months to come. Learn how to ski and meet some cool people. I left work tired today but still had energy to hit the climbing gym for a solid 2 hour sesh. Tomorrow is definite rest day.

I’m trying hard to to physce myself out of these unexpected feelings I have. They don’t make sense and they’re unrealistic i’m glad I’m self aware of that though. I couldn’t imagine mindlessly feeling shit and not trying to understand it or give it proper reason but also maybe that’s a flaw of mine. I feel i’m always trying to give reasons why I should or why I shouldnt feel this way then begin to over analyze and dive deep into the rabbit hole. Is this what happens when you lack any sort of real connection or you're just bored with what’s around you. I feel i’m playing a game and no matter what the out come is I’ll always feel I lost.

Even knowing how things will turn out you still kind of hope for an alternative ending.

I’ve been texting this girl that also works at the resort and she lives out of her van… I think we’re supposed to chill this weekend not to sure well I just wanna climb with her I don’t really give a fuck to hangout in her van.

Patrick if you’re reading this. The bet is on motherfucka.

Feels funny to be writing this shit with someone 4 feet from me that I barely even know.

im way to tired to go back and correct any weird errors on tonight’s writing,

9:38pm

Park City, Utah