Nevada 215

The attempts to get on a proper climbing schedule is harder than I anticipated. Either I have worked at the climbing gym or someone is too sore to climb. The outdoor climbing here has been impeccable and can’t wait to keep exploring these mountains in the coming months.

Madeline leaves for New Zealand in a few days and I think I might be more excited for her than she is for herself. That doesn’t hide the fact that I am despondent she will be 1000 miles overseas for X months. Building a relationship with someone is already a complicated task to do in one’s life and it makes it harder to build a relationship with someone from a distance during its formative months/years. Nevertheless, we cannot worry about the future for it hasn’t happened yet. I am grateful to be unaware of my next move or the next big plan in my life. It brings a sense of anxiousness and diving into what is unknown is a beautiful feeling I’ve been chasing for the past seven years. It truly is the best high one can have. One of the best attributes I have acquired over my years of road-tripping, traveling, and living a sort of nomadic life is that I no longer carry the weight of immense fear of doing the unknown. The anxiety and nervousness never leave but the fear is gone and it doesn't hold me down.

I would like to make a big change this year regarding where I am going. I have been traveling the west for some time and have been very pleased with the adventures and interactions I’ve had. I have this eagerness to go overseas whether to Europe or possibly New Zealand though it’s difficult for me because I’ve never followed anyone in their travels and frankly didn’t plan on doing so for a very long time. One can hope that things work out and wherever I go is where I’m supposed to be and where I’m supposed to be will bring me happiness in this life.