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I deactivated my Instagram account and deleted all the dating apps I had installed on my phone. It wasn’t such an easy task, it might sound like one, but trust me, it's not. The choice to do that came after some time, looking back at my day and seeing how I spent the minutes in between work, training, and sleeping. I found myself scrolling and even just mindlessly looking at people's photos that either I knew or didn't know. I applaud the folks who can carry on with such a powerful tool and not use it in the worst way possible because I certainly lack the self-control to do so. I carried an unhealthy relationship with social media, which came down to comparing myself and finding myself bitter over certain things. The worst of them all are the dating apps. The psychology that goes behind those apps is pretty scary. They release the same feeling in your brain that you would get playing a slot machine game at a casino. You swipe through hundreds, maybe even thousands, of different people. It's endless and the worst part of it is they are doing the same to you. If they don't swipe right, they don't like you, you then find yourself asking. “Well, how can they not like me if they don't even know me?”

It’s a pretty torturous way to go about acceptance, especially within yourself. Then is the sheer vanity that comes with it. I simply wanted to remove myself before it's too late and I'm stuck in the rabbit hole as most people were with TiK Tok. Get out before it takes hold of you and you’re truly addicted to these soul-sucking pieces of software.