California 180

I woke up this morning around 7 AM I washed my face and brushed my teeth then I proceeded to drink about 12 ounces of water. I put on a pair of pants made some coffee and I sat outside on the lawnchair with the sun beaming right down on me. I felt at peace with the moment that I was in but internally I knew there was no peace found and when the time came for me to get up from that lawnchair I no longer found the peace I found under the sun. I dont don't want you the reader to think I'm generally An unhappy individual and that I'm constantly fighting these inner thoughts that negatively reflect my perspective of everything around me. I'm actually quite the opposite if you couldn't tell by now I believe everyone goes through phases or chapters whatever you wanna call it that not everything is happy that everything is sunshine rainbows and the unfortunate thing about that is that it warps our perspective of the world. Every morning I've been trying to just get outside first thing and send into the sun I feel like a plant absorbing the sunlight and giving me energy The minute the sun touches you everything becomes warm your skin sort of crawls and you think, what could go wrong at this moment?