California 194

I wrote a letter to the ex girlfriend and im not sure if it was a huge mistake I cant really decide but its to late now. I feel deep down ive moved on maybe more romantically then anything else. Its hard to latch on to something romantically when you dont hear or see someone for so long. Thought it could be I havent moved on at all and this is a way of me coping with the loss of someone I cared for. Then I think the person I lost they arent that person anymore and neither am I.. change is the only constant in this world. There is a version of her now that ill never know and that I will never have but I did not lose. I believe thats the way it was meant to be. I think most of us have a natural curiosity to see how the people who were once so important to us are doing and what they are up too. Ive come across hundreds of people everyone so different from the net I would never dare to compare anyone it would be insulting. Some people leave stains in our lives and others leave momentary sparks. The ones who leave stains I think we dont always know they will leave stains or stick around but they do longer than we thought and they become friends , lovers, even family. They teach us lessons and not always in the way we wanted to be taught or they give us new skills we can only be so grateful they have bestowed upon us. Either way these people come into our lives stick around and create dents leave stains, sometimes sticking around or sometimes leaving to soon. In the end I believe we can be grateful always for the very fact someone wanted to enter our wacky little world and leave a stain bad or good and for that we thank them.