California 183

Yes, its been 16 days since ive posted. I’m writing on this day specifically because I woke up feeling different. The goal in mind is to grow. There is a belief that goes around that claims the only way to grow is to be alone. I dont entirely agree but I believe that is when TRUE abundant amount of growth happens. Coming to my mid 20s soon, i’ve spent the majority of my early 20s being alone, but at times I distracted myself and filled empty spots of the day with things that didn’t help my growing as an individual. I took two steps forward every day and then one step backwards. I've been assessing in the last few months and especially the last 2  the growth that I've taken and apply moving forward.  I can only control my future and what happens in it.  I can't control what happens beyond me  but I believe if everyday you take a look and reflect on how to become a better person whether it's mentally, physically, emotionally, or spiritually  that the things that you don't control will fall into place.  My friend told me the other day, "you know the grass isn't always greener on the other side".  

I didn't want to hear that because it's the truth at times.  It applies to so many aspects of life, but I can only relate to one example.  We don't make the wrong decisions, and we don't make the right decisions,  we simply make decisions.  And those are the ones that we have to live with.  Summer is right around the corner, and it'll be a bittersweet one,  I'll feel like there's something missing. It will be filled with friends, family, and time spent in the  ocean while I have it here.