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So I had a conversation with a friend the other day, and we were talking about when you feel kind of depressed, and that depressed feeling can cause you to feel tired.  I guess that's why they always say that when you're depressed you don't want to get out of bed, and you can't walk to get food, etc.  It's been a rough past two months for me, and I could compare it to some sort of depression that I was dealing with.  It was brutal, I found myself staying in bed in the morning time doing absolutely nothing not even on my phone  and on top of that it would take me another 30 minutes just to get out of bed and get into the shower.  My typical mornings went from a process of 30 minutes to 2 hours.  The very thing that I noticed that bothered me the most was how little hunger I had. I lost my energy and interest to fuel my body. 

 He told me something that seems so clear obvious, but I didn't think of it not once he said "Eventually you'll get tired of feeling tired."

It was like something had snapped in me,  it didn't cure the sadness right away, but it had dawned on me that I was tired of feeling tired I found myself to complain about getting out of bed late, not eating, and feeling slow.  Sometimes the most powerful lessons come from being at rock-bottom with yourself because at the end of the day you're at Rock Bottom by yourself. People have the choice to stick with you or leave.  You can see it as a half glass empty or half glass full you hit rock bottom, and now you have nothing only yourself, but that's the beautiful thing you have only yourself it's time to rebuild  and structure yourself any way you would like.  I hope anyone that's reading this that goes through any difficult times in their life, phases in life where things might get hard, financially mentally, emotionally  find a way to come out of it with a lesson learned and find the courage to begin again.  I also hope that you find that the people you love and that love you stick by your side.